So nearly one year ago I began a public (well however many people that read this blog qualifies it as 'public') quest for simplification in my life.
I desired to eliminate distractions in my life and also add in inspiration and growth.
Overall, a lot of it worked!
I met goals and practiced discipline
I had accountability from this blog, my husband, and friends (so thankful!)
Here I am...nearly one year later...and I feel as if I've recently taken steps backwards....
I reactivated facebook for several reasons...but still I struggle with my time spent on it and the anxiety I let it cause me through reading about others and reading into what they say
I have been glued to the t.v. this summer - even though we don't have dish and we cancelled Netflix!
I haven't exercised much this summer (I only did 15 days of the 30 day shred...)
I was barely in the word daily this summer while I did an intense 11 week Beth Moore study
(So wow, that was a depressing list...)
But I did graduate this year!
I enjoy spending more time with Mylin and focus on our time together when we're at home
And Joel and I have gotten into a groove of spending time together in the evenings and going on regular dates
We have really enjoyed doing double dates a lot this year with wonderful like-minded friends
I even changed all of my responsibilities to that I could focus a lot of my time on MomLife - a ministry that I want to invest my energy in, not spread it thin with the several other ministries I was trying to be partly involved in
I have also been seeing a counselor for about 3 months to deal with my anxiety in a few specific relationships I have struggled with for years
Though I looong for something more...so much more for my life, my family, ministry that I can glorify God through...
I come home on Sunday afternoons encouraged and passionate about what we are taught and challenged with
Meeting with my MomLife leadership team I am energized with ideas and infatuated with the relationships I am building through this ministry
All I want to do is sit down and discuss with everyone else their view and opinions on adoption, living in community, the radical experiment, how to decipher when sermons/teachers are contradicting, whether to homeschool or not, and how to be disciplined in daily scripture reading and regular exercise...
Is my list too long?
How and where do I even start?!
I wish I had someone (or a couple, for Joel and I) to partner with us and come alongside to guide, direct, and mentor us...
Someone once told me all I needed was the Bible and the Holy Spirit...but I struggle to trust that - even though I know I can...and should...
Where do I go from here?
I think I'll begin by praying (and practicing self-discipline!)...
In what ways and in what areas can I be praying for your growth?!
I would be privileged to keep you accoutable too
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