Monday, August 9, 2010


i have been struggling with finding contentment in my daily life
a lot of my time is spent with miss mylin - which i enjoy!

however, when i'm nursing her, i'm thinking about whether she'll fall asleep, how long will she stay asleep, what can i do while she's sleeping, and if i can get a chance to sleep some too...
then while she's sleeping i'm worrying about what time she'll wake up, how long she will eat, if i can manage to eat at the same time, if i can leisurely read while nursing her, or if i'm just going to continue through the will&grace series like i have been...
when i'm away i'm wondering if she's crying, hungry, gassy, sleeping peacefully at home with daddy or at our parents houses...

all of this to say is that i am not being fully present in the moment of my day - i'm always looking one (or seven) steps ahead instead of finding contentment in the nursing, the napping, the chores, and the time away

any advice or suggestions?!


  1. ENJOY this time! It goes by far too quickly. You are also normal. Take this time to enjoy. Leave the house a mess, rest, read, and relax. You have the luxury of only one child. It will never be like this again. :) Of course you don't know luxury until you look back and think "why didn't I enjoy it then???" I hear many older and wiser moms say that the house will be clean one day...not while you have children at home, though.

  2. Your thoughts are a lot of the same ones I had when I first had Maddie. Some of the repetitive tasks of caring for her felt like drudgery, and when I was away, I couldn't stop thinking of her.

    There is so much uncertainty with parenting too. It really does get more predictable as they get older. Then she'll start to talk. :) And you never know what's going to come out of their mouth.